This post is a vent for me...please don't find me selfish for how I'm feeling....
I really feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders right now and I'm seriously worried that I'm going to loose it...1st of all we have the move happening next week. I'm so excited about it and if packing was the only thing I had to worry about then everything would be fine but unfortunatly Rob's dad is in the hospital and he has been for almost 3 weeks and there really isn't any sign of him getting out any time soon. He is in the Saint John hosptial so Rob hasbeen driving to work in Moncton and then driving to Saint John every other day. That has been hard enough on me (having to deal with the kids those days) but I've been managing, and we go with him accassionaly. Fast forward to today....Rob's sister came down from NS to stay for awhile. She is sleeping at Rob's dad's place but I have to cook for her while she's here...no big deal, really. The big deal is that even though she is here with her own car she wants Rob to drive her to the hosptial EVERY DAY when he gets home from work. EVERYDAY!!! How am I supposed to pack, clean and look after our children with no help? When i questioned Rob on why she couldn't drive herself once in awhile he got angry with me!!! i'm just so stressed out and I don't know what to do right now.....maybe I am just selfish
2 comments:
oh Tracy, moving is such a stressfull time as it is, without having to do it all yourself. You are not being selfish. It is a lot of work to take on by yourself, plus look after the girls too. Then add the fact that you have boxes piled everywhere, and that in itself is enought to get ones blood pressure up. ((hugs)) If i lived close by i'd be over to help you. Do you have any friend or other family members that can help you? Maybe talk to Rob when you calm down and explain to him that you can't do it all by youself. If he can't be there to help you, ask him to hire someone that can? Hang in there, and vent any time you need too!!
It's hard to make sense of anything when there is no sense to be found and OHHHH boy, clutter is hard to make sense of and it does cloud 'normal' judgement. I dislike clutter. I dislike the smell of boxes (many years of moving) and do I ever dislike people imposing when they can darn well do things for themselves!
How frustrating it must be for you with a sister-in-law who can clearly see that you need support just as she does - and she's not giving you space for your husband to be that. And your feelings of frustration are legitimate Tracy, NOT SELFISH.
Rob must also feel like he’s against a rock and a hard place though too. The strain of his father being in the hospital, the pushing of his sister to want to be with her dad everyday with the expectation that Rob should drive and be there for them, and then the move, and you and the girls. Still, as Jude stated, you need to talk with him about the stress you’re feeling. Don’t let it fester – it’ll just get worse (I too should take my advice, I’m a good one for festering).
I tell you, life can be so inconvenient sometimes.
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