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A great week!

Do you ever think about something that you're scared that as soon as the words come out of your mouth you'll totally jinx it? That's how I feel as i sit down to type this post. I'm actually scared that if I write these words everything will fall apart. But I'm going to do it....here goes. This has been a great week!!! The girls have gotten along really well. The screaming in this house has really been limited to normal things that little girls scream about. More then that, I've felt really great. Really happy. I haven't had one down day this week and that is momumentous for me!! It's funny how a person't mood can really change how things effect them. Like this week I actually feel like a good mom! It's pretty great!

Tonight we are taking the girls to Boo at the Zoo in Moncton. Livy is pretty much scared of everything right now so it could be interesting how she'll react. Nadia on the other hand is at the age where she understands the difference between read things and fake things so she's like "bring on the scary stuff". She's already told me that daddy should take her to see the scary paths and that i should stay with livy and do the not scary ones. I'll let you know how it goes.

Nadia's birthday party

Nadia had her birthday party yesterday. This year we had it at the local bowling alley and it went really well. She had a lot of fun and so did all the other kids so I was very happy about that. There were a few littler ones there so I wasn't sure how bowling would go with them but they had a ball (no pun intented!!!). Nadia got lots of great gifts that I was totally anticipateing (and dreading with how kids toys are packaged these days) having to open pretty much as soon as we walked through the door. However, instead she played with the helium filled balloons and the cheap plastic toys from in her pinaita (i have no idea how to spell that word). Actually, here it is the morning after her party and she still has not asked to have any of the toys taken out of their packages. Hmm....is that a sign she has too many toys?

As soon as I figure this whole blogging thing out i'll post some pictures here.

Tracy

5 years already

Well, here it is, my first blog ever. Not sure that I'll do this on a regular basis as i really don't think my life is quite interesting enough to update about frequently. Today I just kind of felt inspired to write....as of yesterday I have been a mother for 5 years! 5 Years!!! I feel like i've blinked and the years have gone by. It's amazing really. I'm not one of those mothers who misses the baby days and tells everyone to cherish each moment and each stage. Not to say that you shouldn't, but i think it's ok to look forward instead of always looking back. Does that make any sence at all. In my head it does but i'm not sure that it can be written the way i feel. I really love watching Nadia grow up! The future excites me, of coarse some aspects terrify me, but usually the excitment out ways the fear. Sometimes i'll look at Nadia (and Livy too) and it will still amaze me that she came from me. I don't think that feeling ever goes away for any mother.

I'm not a perfect mom and over these past 5 years I've made many mistakes, and hopefully learned from them. I've learned more about myself in these past 5 years then I did in all the other years of my life combined! Being a mother has truly made me a better person.